Wow. A long time. But, still many people reading since I have abandoned you. Sorry about that.
You see. I had big plans when I last posted. I was going to be an advocate for music festivals as a disabled person. I was going to out those who made it harder for disabled people to access music, and highlight those who helped and supported them. I was going to continue camping, endlessly, tirelessly refusing to give in to the pain and discomfort.
But, it didn’t happen. It was too ambitious. Because actually, as much as i loved it, my back pain and mobility deteriorated and I sort of stopped living. For a little while. I buried my head in the sand, again, about the longevity of what I know for sure now is degenerative disc disease and arthritis of the facet joints in my lumbar spine. And really, I am just not brave enough or strong enough or able to pretend my back pain is not there enough to be able to go to festivals as I would like no matter how fabulous the event organisers are. I attempted camping once this year, but due to a combination of shocking weather, mobility issues and air mattresses that keep deflating on me, it’s on the back burner. We might try once again. Hmm.
I think during my last rant or two I might have mentioned that I was waiting for an appointment to see a highly reputable Neurosurgeon at the National Hospital of Neurology and Neurosurgery. Well it did. I saw him, he was direct, honest, kind, and if I might say so, rather handsome to boot. He informed me that I have lumbar spinal stenosis due to the facet joints being little fuckers at TWO levels (it’s getting higher) – L4/L5 vertebra and L5/S1 vertebra. If you remember, my original problem was L5/S1 vertebra and was told I had a perfect spine if not for that injury. Well, that was bollocks! So, basically, along with a broad based disc bulge at L4/L5, and a thickened Ligamentum Flavem, which was helpfully pressing on the spinal cord, I had bone spurs growing into the channel where the sciatic nerve exits the spinal cord.
I had a laminectomy and decompression on the right side of L4/L5 and L5/S1 vertebra in January 2015 at NHNN, with the expectation of up to 50% overall pain relief, i.e. attempting to completely free the nerve and ease my sciatic pain, but not really being able to do much for the back pain without fusing my spine, which was given a 60/40 success rate so was dismissed for now. Initially the results were fabulous after the minor blip of a CSF leak; I could stand straighter, I could walk without a stumbling shuffling gait, I was able to walk without my lovely orange and black crutch for short walks on flat surfaces, and I felt I had, finally, turned a corner.
But no! Of course not! My pain levels went up, up up. My mood levels went down, down, down. I struggled with leg pain, back lock, constant muscle spasms from the base of my spine to my neck. I had trigger point injections which helped a lot (and four months later I am waiting for my 8 weeks review to see how these went) but wore off too quickly, I had acupuncture, which worked wonders for several days then back to epic spasms. Pain Clnic doctor and physiotherapist have both said I am impatient, have lots of muscle wastage, and to give it time, much, much more time, patience, effort. All of which I have been doing. I have slowed down as asked, but not stopped, and tried hard to be positive.
But it’s been 8 months since my laminectomy and decompression. 8 months of moving, walking (trying to get some distance but not happening), physio and i continue to struggle with standing for too long, walking, pretty much at all, and sitting for more than a few minutes. And now I am mostly back at the stuck bent over stage. I’ll take a photo of the ‘old woman hunched over with a walking stick’ sign at Wembury Beach toilets to show you what I look like.